bugger ye all

well, no, things can be worse than even i imagine.

Day 3 FSH - 31

Day 10 FSH - 11

Inhiben B - 17

hi, i'm the Single Hussy and my eggs suck. the only bright side is that everything else was lovely. even my E2 levels where a calm 38 on Day 3 and a yeah, we're listening to you yell 225 on Day 10. not spectacular, but not sign of something else.

the doctor asked if i'd had an ovary or part of one removed. i told her the only thing i remembered hearing after my first endo surgery was that my right ovary was badly scarred and most likely non-functional.

so i asked right away, what do i do? do we just jump into IVF? acupuncture? though she was reserved and not "oh, don't worry, i've had women in your situation get pregnant" (because no, her highest FSH number for pregnancy was a 22), she also said, "i didn't say there was no chance. it's just not a good chance, but we are still going to try."

given the pathetic state of my numbers, no to started with IVF since she doesn't think she would get good eggs. we decided to go ahead and do the HSG next cycle just to make sure we know everything we are dealing with at this point. and we'll do a clomid cycle IUI next cycle as well. get the ball rolling.

so i picked up the card for the acupuncturist they had. but, when i called, i got a different office, and in doing a quick google search, found no info on the guy. plus, it would be waaaay far away.

what did come up on google for the area was a center for well being that focuses on acupuncture for infertility, including tradition Chinese medicines, and it is next door to one of the W&I locations. one of the doctors has almost the exact same last name as me, so i called, and within 5 minutes, she called back. she quickly took down my info, asked about my charting, as many of my numbers as i could remember, my age, situation, etc., and i have an appointment monday night.

i'm also upping my maca root i'm taking, and will start on DHEA tomorrow as well. i'm curious about the FSH drop on day 10. i started on the maca day 8. stress level around day 3 was somewhere through the roof. so my new mission right now is to de-stress as much as possible (we'll see how work cooperates), get to bed earlier, and focus on creating some healthy eggs out of my piddly reserve. it can be done. i'm not going to let this be hopeless.

if i have to, i'll give three IUIs a try now, wait a few months as i continue the other therapy, and try again. i'm focusing on being positive right now. i have to.

and i just have to say that my experience today with my RE's clinic was really refreshing. as soon as i checked in, a nurse came out and introduced herself to me, and apologized that the doctor was running 15 minutes late, and was that okay. (new sonogram machine compete with training techs slowing things down.) i said of course, and within 15 minutes was in the doctors office to talk to her.

after talking to the doctor and coming up with the game plan, the nurse sat with me again, went over all the instructions for the HSG and the IUI. she said chin up, it's been done. as bleak as things felt, no one at any point said, it's hopeless, don't waste your time or money.

after speaking with the acupuncturist, i realized i needed all my blood test results and called over to the office, explaining i needed my numbers, my info was taken so a nurse could call me back. again, within 5 minutes my phone rang, and the nurse explained that we should set up a time tomorrow for the doctor to call and explain them all to me. when i said i had already been in and needed the information for acupuncture, she immediately pulled up my info and gave me the full run done. this kind of support and understanding and cooperation with other practitioners is something i have never encountered when dealing with doctors. it was great.

it was also nice to be told that wow, except for that FSH, i had really good blood results. yeah, no wonder the blood center loves my donations.