Tuesday, July 13, 2010

a quickie

Just wanted to post a very heart-felt thankful for all the wonderful comments I've received. I Am okay, and I know that my baby, no matter how it gets here, is out there waiting for me. DNA has very little to do with it. After all, I did initially begin this whole pursuit thinking I was going the road of adoption. But I think the change to having the possibility of carrying my own child lit a little spark in me that was a wee bit stronger than I thought.

And being a gathering of our family and our identical looking faces this weekend added a fun little spin on it all. But I had my wine, I had my tears. Time to keep moving.

What I'm struggling now with is the stress of FINDING a donor egg or embryo. And not having to remortgage my house in order to afford it. Work blocking every non-business website these days is really cutting down on my research time! My sisters are all older than I am, and well past having any eggs themselves. I have some lovely nieces, but as someone said, I think that leads to some weirdness in the family! :)

The right little cell/collection of cells will come along. It is just being patient (not somethingI'm known for!) that is really hard.

Thank you again, for all the words of support. Where would I be without the internets?

12 comments:

  1. Glad you're doing okay & moving forward...like you said, the right cells will come along & it will be perfect & meant to be.

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  2. I really wish there was an easy way to donate eggs internationally. I'd totally do it for free.

    You're going to be a mother, one way or another. Your child is waiting.

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  3. Well that's one good post there. Thanks.. I enjoyed reading...

    grants for single mothers

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  4. I'm glad to hear you sounding so positive. It really is just a matter of getting embryos to you.

    I don't see your email anywhere and I don't know that I should just unload embryo/egg info in your comments section but if you're interested any, my email is in my profile.

    I'm not at all good with the patience part either but it will definitely make it worth it in the end when it all comes together and your little baby is here.

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  5. I hope the perfect donor shows up very very soon. I am sending you tons of good luck vibes...

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  6. Aww the little cluster of cells are out there waiting for you. Who knows maybe they contain some impatience just like you, even if they don't look exactly like you :)

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  7. So sorry. Virtual hugs! I know you'll get there somehow. I'm sending you fertile vibes!

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  8. Thinking of you as you start this new part of your journey. Big hugs!

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  9. Love that you are moving forward. I could barely take the two negative IUIs I had, and you, you have been such a trooper. I need to read about people like you because it gives me courage to go on. Thank you!

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  10. Hi, just found your blog. I am a SMC myself. My son was born back in May. And it was quite the roller coaster ride to get there/here. I remember when I was trying and kept getting the negative results, I kept asking myself, if I couldnt physically do this, what would I do? And my answer always was, I WILL be a mom - for me Plan B was adoption.
    Whatever your next steps are, they will bring you to YOUR child. I am so glad I found your blog! = ) Melissa

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  11. Just wanted to say hi. I stubled across your blog from another one I read. I'm an SMC (I have a 6-year-old) and have been trying for #2 for 2 years. Donor egg is likely in my future, too. Best wishes.

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