Of course, I'm no closer to figuring it out, but I figured I needed to at least surface one more time in 2010.
Also, if I didn't get down that quote for the subject, I was going to forget it. ;) And the context behind it that was my fight with the Big Huge Reproductive Medicine Center after I started to get bill, upon bill, upon bill for what I had put down an enormous deposit to cover, even though they said the cost would only be half that.
Oh, big medical offices, always finding a way to bill you for things NOT covered, never mind flat out LYING to you. Oddly enough, I knew this was the very reason that Dr. Wonderful and 3 of her colleagues were leaving BHRMC...
But, dear readers, I didn't take it lying down and hit back swinging. Do not mess with a woman on her 4th chemical pregnancy and with hormones completely out of whack from injectibles. I used my knowledge of the knock-down drag-out going on internally and got in some nasty punches. I also demanded that everything I was being charged for (twice -- they tried to charge me for everything twice!) be submitted to my insurance company for reimbursement, and marked as diagnostic. As expected, insurance did pay, and I suddenly had a refund for my deposit.
But it doesn't leave me any less skittish about these REs and their looking at our IF as a huge money making machine. It just makes the whole thing hurt even more. The desire seems so simple: a child to love. But what you do trying so hard to get there seems oh so unfair!
That is about where I am right now. Still hurting, still nursing my wounds, still wanting so badly, and not knowing what direction to go next in order to be knocked down again. I promise to try and stop by more often in the new year as I cautiously start this journey again.