as of today, the break is over. actually, learned this last night as i was late racing out the door to massage. well, that was a bit early and unexpected, but explained the mystery tummy ache all day as well as the sneak-attack by a two hour nap. instantly, the horde of butterflies was back in my belly. but seeing as a very special and dear friend confirmed her pregnancy yesterday morning, i'll take the signs where i can find them. after all, if this amazing woman can achieve it, then so can i!
i will confess that this month off to heal the body has been rough and not full of all positive signs as i expected. my temps in my leutal phase were just a bit too scattered for my (and my acupuncturist's) taste. and i just felt "off" the entire month. i'm hoping that this is all due to a massive case of seasonal allergies (oof, it has been a *rough* spring in the northeast!) playing haywire with my antihistamine free body.
so i'm on migraine watch today, and so far, so good. i'll be seeing the acupuncturist on thursday, and also starting the clomid that day. and i promise to be diligent about my yoga practice this month. i mean it!
despite last month's rocky road of time off, i did have one huge confirmation of things heading in the right direction at my annual gynie check. Dr. D. is such a sweetie, and my biggest (okay, well one of many) cheerleader by far. after the nurse confirmed the 25 pound weight loss since last year (go me!), and my blood pressure checked in at a cool 90/60, Dr. D. walked in and said that he had spotted me walking in the office and had to do a double take. "You look 5 years younger than you did when I saw you last year. That means one thing -- it's the big E." yes, after years of trying to suppress my body's over-abundance of estrogen to keep the endo at bay, it is now ramped back up and in his words, causing a "glow of fertility" in my skin and face. and also helping to nip my waist back in. it's playing hell with me being able to keep my too large jeans in place, but i'll take it!
Dr. D. is pleased as punch to hear of my work with the acupuncturist, and wanted to make sure that i was still working with her during my break. he was also thrilled with Dr. W.'s news on my progesterone numbers, and that i went from being a poor responder to an awesome responder in a mere month. he reminded me that he referred me to her because she is a realist, but that when she is pleased and happy with something, it is huge.
so here we are, ready to try again. and with everyone around me suddenly pregnant, i'll remind myself of the big goal when i dawdle over eating my walnuts (yes, they are still ick to me), or hesitate to dive into eating that avocado half. thank goodness my green smoothies remain a tasty wonder of supplements... hmm, i should really share that recipe!